Farewell BS, Hello Tumblr?

APPLE CUT THE CHECK!



i been so busy and haven't had time to blog recently >_>

also quitting blogspot and POSSIBLY move onto tumblr, yea i'm hoppin on the bandwagon lol xD

L for Love, L for Lies

i never knew she found someone so soon, within two weeks actually. it shows how much i meant to her. you can't tell someone how much you love them and then move on in two weeks, can you?

in the back of my mind i knew she was too good for me, i told myself theres someone much better than me for her, i seen it coming i just didn't know it was gonna happen before i had a chance to prove myself.

i've been blocking the thought of her out my mind, i wanna move on. i really do. but i know the chances of finding someone as perfect as her is very slim. she wasn't a girlfriend, but more like a bestfriend. i felt like we talked about everything, i was open with her... even with the most embarrassing stuff. yes my life has been bumpy right now, and i'm not stable with school nor work. and she became impatient and gave up on me, when i was willing to wait forever for her, and a part of me still is.

she messaged me today.. a part of me was excited thinking to myself "yes... maybe we can rekindle this thing", then to find out she has a boyfriend and that basically took the slightest chance of what i had left away.

i agree.. i wasn't at my best when we were talking. i wasn't too lubby dubby, i didn't wanna show how much i really love her, because i'm afraid once she knew that, i would be heartbroken and left with nothing but memories of what we had, and what we could've been. apparently that didn't work either. i'm not good at pretending. i wanna let people know i'm doing fine, i'm alright.. but how can i? its not that easy to hide, especially when people still ask me how we are doing.

i was doing okay at forgetting about her, why did she had to hit me up? to make me feel good, and then make all that go away by telling me shes taken? i don't understand that. but i'll be alright. i'll take it as a lesson on how to be a better boyfriend, and i'll be more than sure that my next girl will be my forever. i'll be more careful choosing the right girl this time around.


to me, she was the one i go cried to
to her, i'm the one she told lies to

"i'll wait for you, you know i'ma always be here"
"i love you"
"you are amazing"
"i can't wait to be with you"

i don't wanna say i feel hatred against her. i honestly don't. shes a great person, and she deserves the best. and apparently i wasn't the right fit for her. i told her in the beginning that the love i have for her is much greater than the love she has for me, i hope shes convinced now.

sorry, i had to let all my feelings out and vent. as close to i was on forgetting her, i guess it'll take a little longer now.

i wanna be the first to tell her happy birthday, but what are the chances of her even wanting to talk to me.

sore as a bitch from playing bball yesterday. of course i lost.. my short ass barely got any rebounds!! lol

went to el's, grabbed some food, then went to cathy's to watch "dragon". cathy somehow always thought bruce lee was a wrestler, and is just some character LOL!

but really that bruce lee is every asians hero (atleast mine), hes god in human form! lol.. well thats a little out of line, but that man is a genius!



went to saigiddy to eat some viet food before paul dipped off. and its official, diamond push-up contest going down with me and duong, loser getting punched 10 times! i'm taking the W like the previous two times, yaaaa dig!!

Out Of The Blue // Ant Killer

so my nigga paul hit me up out of nowhere at 12 midnight saying he's here in jersey from va. so he picked me up along with duong, and we went to meet up with d and mig at duncan projects gas station. spending a long ass time there like fools trying to plan something up, and it resulted in meeting up at another meet up spot lmao! (in front of gwood).

we chilled there for several minutes, debating whether or not to go to a strip club.. when duong only had 5 dollars, nigga can't even get a lapdance with that! maybe a one butt cheek one thats fully clothed. lmao!

after spending awhile there, we ended up going to nyc to eat some babababaaangin ass pizza! got home around 5 in the morning. stopped by walgreens and copped me this

yes i took this pic just for yall, pauls on the floor knocked out (can't be seen lol)

this past few weeks i been seeing ants like fucking crazy, and my only method to killing them was by using skotch tape (gangsta i know). but after spraying the shit around the edges of my tv closet (seems to be where they usually come from) i don't be seeing em shits at all now! does it sound weird to say that i miss em? hahaha!

ants are mad interesting! i actually took the time out to research on them a bit, if they were a few sizes larger i truly believe that they'll take over this world. it sounds kinda weird i admit, to hear myself think so highly of fucking little ass insects, but peep these videos out and tell me ants aren't brilliant! lolol

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL THAT STUPID ASS BITCH TO STOP APPEARING IN MY MIND.

nice day today! went to bayonne to classics to shop, sadly they sold out my size. BOOHOO!

so upstairs has been rented out by a filipino couple. what boggles my mind is that we charging them 1050 ONLY! wtf. our previous tenants paid a k flat and we booted them out for only 50 dollars more? wow -_-