holy motherfucker! i swear man, i know life will be hard living once my mom leaves to vietnam for a month or so; due to the fact that she does all the cleaning and cooking. but i really question on how much i'll miss her. a part of me thinks it'll be relaxing on everyone's part. all she did these past few days is bitching and yapyapyap. i wonder why she can't communicate like a regular human being.
just yesterday she asked me to set an alarm for her, and i did. for some reason the alarm suddenly went off, she asked "whys it ringing?" i told her i set it to 5:30 AM like she told me but for some reason it went off. she then blacked out saying "how the hell can you not know? its ringing and i told you to put it at 5:30, it's 9" and she proceeded to yell, throw insults, and bitched at me. i set it like how she wanted me to, how the fuck am i suppose to know why the stupid alarm rang? she could've spoken nicely and i would've went to see what happened, but she chose to yell so i went and shut off the clock period, a part of me was ready to take that shit and bashed it infront of her face. i chose to held back and not cause a scene... its just that she gets me frustrated :/
i don't wanna say that i'm happy to not hear her voice for a month, cause god forbid something might happen... and i wish she'll have a safe trip. a part of me is still worried cause i won't be by her side, i'll just have to rely on my uncle to look out for her.
my relationship with my mom has been a weird one. she definitely stresses me out. at times i rather not spark a conversation with her cause i know it'll lead to her yelling and mouthing off, and it shouldn't be that way. i just wanna know why shes quick to point out my negatives and talk shit about me to her friends.
other parents keep the negative shit about their children within the family, but my mom chooses to share my personal life to the public. not only that but she chooses to compare me to everyone and let me know how better kids they are. sorry i'm not as great as them. i don't like who i am either, i know i'm in need of change.
i don't wanna blame my parents, i love them to death but i do think their way of raising someone was done very poorly. i can only learn from them and hope not to make the same mistakes. maybe all her lashing out is just mid-life crisis, and stress that shes going through. i want this vacation to go well for her, she hasn't been on one in a long while.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
New Songs To The Playlist
blu - collar worker
tupac - changes
frankie j - how to deal
jupiter rising - electropop
no doubt - don't speak
tupac - changes
frankie j - how to deal
jupiter rising - electropop
no doubt - don't speak
Happy 1st Birthday To Aivy's Son
my nigga mike just called me up and ask if i were attending to aivy's party, sadly i'm not. i feel fucked up in a sense but its funny cause i weren't invited to her baby shower.
of course thats not why i'm not going. it's mainly because noone i know of is going to be there, and i hate feeling out of place. sorry if thats not a good enough reason but its all i got haha. that and my hair is woooooooolllfffffin' right now! :(
of course thats not why i'm not going. it's mainly because noone i know of is going to be there, and i hate feeling out of place. sorry if thats not a good enough reason but its all i got haha. that and my hair is woooooooolllfffffin' right now! :(
What The Fuck Is That Noise?
okay people. so i woke up several hours ago. its now 6 AM and i'm trying to fall back asleep. but for the past fucking hour or so i've been hearing a BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! like a steady noise of loud bangs. i've been sitting here trying to find out where its coming from. i walked back and forth the house like a retard. first i thought it was upstairs.. like maybe our tenant has someone over and they are having sex and thats just the bed rocking. then my second guess was my pops doing someshit (construction at 6 AM?) downstairs. but nope it was neither! i opened my window and hear it coming from next door!
like what the fuck? is someone trying to break in their crib? would it seriously take an hour long to do that? a nigga trying to sleep! should i go play hero and ring my neighbors doorbell and see wassup?
like what the fuck? is someone trying to break in their crib? would it seriously take an hour long to do that? a nigga trying to sleep! should i go play hero and ring my neighbors doorbell and see wassup?
Wishlist - New Era 59/50 Fitteds
the wishlist category will be items i (need)want, but might/might not purchase. basically just dope shit and a reminder of what to get! lol. gotta fight the 'urge' to not 'splurge' :[
the greatest letter in the alphabet. T for Tony you already knooow!
lord knows i been through a gazillion yankee fitteds, can never have enough of em!
greens my favorite color and that yellow complements it beautifully.
i honestly have over 50+ fitteds. gave nearly 20 away and giving another batch of fitteds away. my mom is leaving to vietnam and she asked for some of my hats to give to her relatives over there. i doubt they would want sweaty ass stained hats but whatever lol. it'll be funny cause i gave alot of caps that has a "jersey city" logo. vietnam kids gon be reppin my hood! lmaooooo gangstah!
the greatest letter in the alphabet. T for Tony you already knooow!
lord knows i been through a gazillion yankee fitteds, can never have enough of em!
greens my favorite color and that yellow complements it beautifully.
i honestly have over 50+ fitteds. gave nearly 20 away and giving another batch of fitteds away. my mom is leaving to vietnam and she asked for some of my hats to give to her relatives over there. i doubt they would want sweaty ass stained hats but whatever lol. it'll be funny cause i gave alot of caps that has a "jersey city" logo. vietnam kids gon be reppin my hood! lmaooooo gangstah!
Friday, March 27, 2009
Fooling Around With New Camera
testing new camera, took some random flicks around the crib. [click photo for full image]
Jordan QS Hi Premiere
someone please tell me what my mom was thinking when she placed the big ass plant pot all the way on one side of the table and leave the center empty as hell lol
microphone check 1,2 1,2! look at the dust on that thing.. haven't record in forever ;[
Yarrrrrrrr!! lol my piggy bank ninja pirate would pwn yo ass >:D
Brian got locked up for doing that cocaine. (who seen the ep "The Thin White Line"?)
overall i'm very satisfied with the camera. hey! i can't complain when the price was $215. thanks to cathy for picking it up, somehow she managed to get a brand spankin' new camera for below retail LOL!
i was doing some research and saw a slightly better camera with HD video for about 60 dollars more. was thinking of returning this one, but the way technology is moving i rather save the 60 and buy a new camera that would be much, much, MUCH better a year or two down the road.
Jordan QS Hi Premiere
someone please tell me what my mom was thinking when she placed the big ass plant pot all the way on one side of the table and leave the center empty as hell lol
microphone check 1,2 1,2! look at the dust on that thing.. haven't record in forever ;[
Yarrrrrrrr!! lol my piggy bank ninja pirate would pwn yo ass >:D
Brian got locked up for doing that cocaine. (who seen the ep "The Thin White Line"?)
overall i'm very satisfied with the camera. hey! i can't complain when the price was $215. thanks to cathy for picking it up, somehow she managed to get a brand spankin' new camera for below retail LOL!
i was doing some research and saw a slightly better camera with HD video for about 60 dollars more. was thinking of returning this one, but the way technology is moving i rather save the 60 and buy a new camera that would be much, much, MUCH better a year or two down the road.
Added Songs On The Playlist
waddup people! trying to spice up the page and found a way to add my music playlist. hope everyone enjoys it, it has a bit of everything haha.
new songs added:
big bang - haru
ryan tedder - the look
adele - daydreamer
ya boy f. hope - who am i to say
new songs added:
big bang - haru
ryan tedder - the look
adele - daydreamer
ya boy f. hope - who am i to say
MY BIG UPDATE!
wow! i remember creating this site the beginning of 09 to update myself on my "new years resolution" progress. what is it? lose weight. how did it go? failure.
early march, a couple of my close friends (sharon, mike, kristine, reneil, viet, jimmy) all was down to join a gym together, something i was looking forward to. we even checked out several places and settled with one, only problem was that WE NEVER SIGNED UP! what the hell happened? i asked but had no specific detailed answers lol. summer is near by and i realize i can't count on them! time to work out by my damn self, loner status :(
i know being slim is nearly impossible for my body type. not like i have a pair of skinny jeans i'm trying to suffocate my balls into anyway haha. my main focus is to lose a good 10-15 lbs, alot of fat area needs to be gone foreally reals! i'm trying to chill on the beach topless and let the sun beam down and cause sweat to drizzle down some abs dammit! lmao jk x]
i'm not very internet-popular, and most of my friends don't even use the computer. but from this day on forth i'll try to update regularly when possible, even though its just entertainment to myself lol; so i apologize before hand since most the stuff will be about my personal interests >_<
PS
my update weren't so "big" afterall lol
early march, a couple of my close friends (sharon, mike, kristine, reneil, viet, jimmy) all was down to join a gym together, something i was looking forward to. we even checked out several places and settled with one, only problem was that WE NEVER SIGNED UP! what the hell happened? i asked but had no specific detailed answers lol. summer is near by and i realize i can't count on them! time to work out by my damn self, loner status :(
i know being slim is nearly impossible for my body type. not like i have a pair of skinny jeans i'm trying to suffocate my balls into anyway haha. my main focus is to lose a good 10-15 lbs, alot of fat area needs to be gone foreally reals! i'm trying to chill on the beach topless and let the sun beam down and cause sweat to drizzle down some abs dammit! lmao jk x]
i'm not very internet-popular, and most of my friends don't even use the computer. but from this day on forth i'll try to update regularly when possible, even though its just entertainment to myself lol; so i apologize before hand since most the stuff will be about my personal interests >_<
PS
my update weren't so "big" afterall lol
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
From The Bottom
Hook:
in the streets if theres beef we got em
grab the piece let it squeez just pop em
this is me, you don't want problems
to the top we came from the bottom
my dudes move in silence like a game of charades
like wine, age mellow and refine, the only time where time isn't better to rewind
decayed, delayed, repaid
in the streets if theres beef we got em
grab the piece let it squeez just pop em
this is me, you don't want problems
to the top we came from the bottom
my dudes move in silence like a game of charades
like wine, age mellow and refine, the only time where time isn't better to rewind
decayed, delayed, repaid
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